yes i know my tags are messed up. i will fix them soon. well, now, after i screwed up the entire blogger code, they are back. two hours later...a few minor changes. this work tonight has helped me finally to get my mind off the images of today. nothing sounds pleasing. not hungry. not tired. just empty. funny just doesn't work today. or music. smiling isn't even the same. i came home from the climbing gym (my climbing was horrible. no concentration. and my muscles were tense from the worries and evants of the day) and jonathon, my housemate, was sitting on the sofa watching TV.

"haven't you had enough?" i asked. it had been on all day. "any new news?"

"yeah," he said. "they bombed the statue of liberty, too."

i gasped. what next? what will happen now? "are you serious?"

he paused for a moment, and then said, with a giggle, "i'm kidding."

not.funny.at.all. i was rather disturbed by him saying this. quite upset.

is it not enough? this blessed sip of life, is it not enough?