taking footprints

leave only footprints, take only memories. nah, i am taking my footprints with me.

11.21.2001

happy tofurky day everyone! eat drink and be merry. hoping aunt edna won't force you to eat her special casserole that is a very odd bright yellow color, that nobody asks 'so, when are you getting married? having kids? aren't you getting old? you better get a move on before it's too late!' or offers any other unsolicited advice...and that you have a fabulous time with your families and friends. drive safely. smile. and hug your grandma for me. all grandmas need extra hugs. i am off to southern california...where you can have thanksgiving dinner on the patio by the pool. :) only in socal.

i forgot a something below...i am thankful for my 'digital compatriots' (stole that one from chad). for making me laugh, making me think, teaching me about life, letting me into pieces of their lives, reading about mine, and reminding me we all struggle - i am not alone in this crazy world. thanks, guys.

thanksgiving time. here are the thanks i give :P
  • fabulous friends that are always there for me. and that most of them are damn funny and can always make me laugh.
  • my family. i got lucky in that realm. :)
  • my dad has met someone that makes him so happy. after losing my mom, i was really worried about him.
  • there have not been more catastrophic terrorist attacks (and hoping that continues)
  • we are finally realizing the environmental destruction we are causing and are attempting to fix it (even if it's in small ways)
  • my dogs. who always make me smile. and they are always stoked to see me.

i am thankful for so many things, i could be typing for hours. but the list above takes care of the important ones. :)

last night. u2. they rock. a fabulous show. great setlist - all the classics. we got there about an hour before the show (not as early as i had wanted to get there, but i had to wait for dan to come home from work). fortunately, it being sacramento (we pretend like we are a cool city but we're really a cow town) the floor wasn't too crowded yet. we sat down just the the right of the tip of the heart, about 4 rows back. no doubt opened. dan was stoked - he had seen them before they were big, in a tiny club in orange county. and he thinks gwen stefani is hot. everyone stood up, and moved in closer to the platform of the heart. everyone still had their 'space' - not too squished yet. YET.

finally...u2 takes the stage. everyone pushed forward, leaning toward the stage. 'like bono was the christ child himself,' i heard a guy standing next to me say. we were packed in pretty tight, attempting to dance. standing behind me was a woman who weighed at least twice what i do. she was having a grand ole time, bouncing up and down. i was pushed to the left. no big deal, right? wrong. the girl (college age, fitting the 'sorority girl' stereotype) now next to me taps me on the shoulder. 'she [pointing to a girl that was now behind me] was here first. you are in her spot.' what?? it's a freaking floor crammed with hundreds of people. nobody has any 'personal space' anymore. trying to be polite, i attempt to squish back right. which is met with glares from the people to the right of me. i tried to explain the sutuation, not easy with 'where the streets have no name' being played (damnit. ruining the song, worried about being in everyone's way). i had little success. so, i hung there...trying to lean right.

about 5 minutes later the first girl (who told me i was in the 'wrong' place) stepped behind me and began to push me from the back. not the crowd pushing, but intentionally taking steps closer to the back of me. shoving her bag into my back and leaving me with nowhere to go. i kept dancing. which was just kinda bouncing a little. to crowded for actual dancing. she wasn't dancing, just pushing. i was beginning to fall forward. finally, i got a good hard shove, slamming me into the people in front of me.

i turned around. 'YOU are in HER way,' the girl said. at this point, i was not trying to be nice anymore. 'f*ck you.' (i know, i know, not the most mature choice of words). she shoved me again. i stood there for a minute, stewing. realized that it was going to be impossible to enjoy the concert standing anywhere near this chick, i knew that i would have to give up my choice spot. which did not make me happy. debated how to leave. realized i had one shot at it, i turned around and gave her a nice hard shove, a not-so-nice stare, and pushed my way back through the crowd to a less crowded area where there was plenty of dancing room. i attempted to enjoy the rest of the show. which i did, and it was actually nicer where i had more room. dan just stayed where he was (which was kinda next to where i had been). so i had fun dancing and singing and being a fool all by myself.

it made me really bummed at people, though. as well as bummed at myself for reacting immaturely. initially, i felt bad about getting in someone's way. and i tried to move. i had been there early enough to get a decent spot, and wasn't attempting to get any closer. it was just frustrating. maybe it was just the sacramento crowd, but i'd take an abercrombie wearing frat boy dave crowd over that at the u2 show...

11.20.2001

to the dentist today. you're jealous. admit it. next time i can warn you in advance so you can make room in your schedule to come with me. this means i will spend 10 minutes brushing my teeth, and even longer carefully flossing them. i never floss (shh. i know, i know, i should) but i somehow always think that if i floss like mad the day of my dentist appointment it will somehow hide the fact that i am sometimes lazy about brushing my teeth at night (never in the morning! never lazy, that is. always remember) and the dentist will never know. what am i thinking? this guy stares into, what, 15 mouths a day? 300+ days a year? and i am going to fool him into thinking i am the model dental patient?

11.19.2001

there really isn't much to say today. a la office space, i think the entire world (or at least the little piece of it i seem to be a part of) has a case of the mondays. i think i have a case of the MONDAYS. (yeah, that bad. don't worry, it's not contagious unless i type out a whole mopey story. which i won't. so you're safe) can we please have a fast forward to tuesday? better yet, let's just jump ahead to thursday. i am wearing my wool sweater for the first time this winter. cozy warm.